an ironic name for some who has recently entered my life. ironic in terms of the many journeys shes on the course of now at this point. i entered her life by chance and since it has been both fun and challenging. as any journey has its ups and downs the ups are a great way to get to know someone on a happy fun level, however the downs that create challenges are an even better way to get to know someone on an honest deep level. its definatly hard when someone in your life is new and your still learning their personality, but i find this to be the adventurous part of the journey.
ive instantly bonded with journey when we met on a level of been there done that. i found myself viewing her as me a few years ago. all of the issues shes currently facing ive been though 10 times over. and after getting to know her little by little and knowing that in many ways she is like me or how i was… it became hard to watch a person that i have come to care about go through such tourment especially since i knew exactly how it felt.
i know no amount of advice or lessons that ive learned in my experiences can comfort her, however i find myself continuing to try. at first i wasnt sure why but now i think i have it. shes probley going to hate for this because she recently stated she hates being told how great she is but i can honestly say i feel thats the only explaination. wheather she wants to admit it or not… shes a good person. again much like me in that she cares way more than she should and seems to have the best of intentions for everything and everyone. i was once that person and it lead me down a long hard road of pain and time lost. i guess im just trying to be the most helpful objective fair and honest i can be to prevent what i feel is one of the few of a dying breed ( ie a decent person) from suffering the same agoney i have for years. and even though its hard to be objective sometimes i still do it and id like to think that makes me a good person.
she is a sensetive smart caring funny individual who doesnt always take the easy path which i admire greatly. she doesnt give herself enough credit and often covers it with an over lying sence of confidence. this i see though and adore the softness thats inside. this is just another reason why as a friend i feel so compelled to protect and try to make the hardest of times easy for her even if with a goofy laugh. she is stronger than she appears and she has a fire inside her that has yet to be lit. however i feel with alittle push from a friend she will realize all her potentioal and continue on a smoother path while on her journeys.
she wears her heart on her sleeve and loves fearlessly with all she has. though good times and bad she takes it all into herself and yet still trys to make sure everyone around her is happy even if she is not. she already is a sweetlly amazing person that i am proud to call my friend but as soon as she grows some balls (as i say) and learns to be happy within herself wheather the problems are solved or not and reguardless of anything or anyone maybe shell see it too.
best of luck to you my friend and i am here if ever you need me. 100% honestly and objectively. : )