How to cope?!
I am offically broken……. im completely hysterical and lost. Ive come to the realization that the only way to get out of this situation is to get any job that will take me, put whats left of my life in storage, and learn to live with what can fit in my car. Im so tired of this happining to me. I want my old life back. The one i killed myself to get for years and let others take from me. I can only blame myself but i feel ive paid my dues taking care of everyone but me and now im in a hole again. And the worst part is im more worried about marley. Its not fair to him. Im responsible for taking care of him and i cant even provide a home for myself. Im a worthless waste of life and will live out the rest of my days as peoples cheap, used, abused, and disposable expense. I guess i have to learn to accept it. But right now its hard to even keep it together enough to stop crying. Oh well its time to suck it up and continue being lifes worthless bitch.